lately I don't know who I
am
I'm running around in circles everyday. I'm selfish,
cold, and tired, always tired. My thoughts are always focused on
what I have to do, where I'm going, what's wrong with my
life. I can't seem to get a good picture of my future.
I'm always stressed out. Everyday. I never get a break. At
school I want to go home. At home my thoughts drown me and I want
to be distracted at school. I've been quiet, not talking to
many people lately. That smile, it's fake. Most of the time.
The boy I adore is not good for me. He's just going to hurt
me and I'm going to regret it. The boy I did adore has
disappeared, and I can't do anything about that. I'm
scared of life, death, everything. I'm drifting away from my
best friends, family. School and schoolwork are overtaking me,
like a noxious poison. I'm drowning in stress. I'm trying
to hold on. I'm so damn selfish.