I've learned alot in
the past
year.
I've learned how to ignore the feeling that
my world is crashing down on me and that my heart might colapse
in the process.
I've learned how to bury my pain deeep down inside, and hope that
it never comes back up.
I've learned to never say the word "forever" because
when forever ends, the blow hits you twice as hard.
I've learned not to get close to anyone, because as so as i do,
they leave me.
I've learned to stop wishing at 11:11, on shooting stars, or on
birthday candles.
I've learned that life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass,
its about learning to dance in the rain.
I'm trying to learn to stop trying, because you're never comming
back, no matter as hard as i cry or as hard as it hurts to accept
it.
I've learned to try to live without you, but guess what?!
its not working.
I've learned alot in the past year...
But the main thing i learned is to just pretend that i'm happy,
shut up, and smile.
{no matter how much i'm
hurting}
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Venting.
change the colors, do whatever you want with
it.
SF if you see this, your my bestfriend! and i
miss you like hell!
when people ask me who my bestfriend is, i miss being abel to
point to the retarded boy skipping down the hall, and say
proudly
"that's the boy that means the world to
me!"