I don't know why but I can hardly bring myself to talk
anymore unless it's with somebody I really know.
Let me explain a little.
I can't make new friends, and when I say I can't, I
really mean that. If it's not somebody I've known for a
while I can't talk to them.
Even in the slightest form it sends me into a freak out attack.
I'll sweat really bad, get nervous, and start to shake
slightly. I'll even get dizzy and have trouble
walking/standing up.
I can't make phone calls to people I don't know. I
can't talk to the cashiers or waiters when I go out.
I freak out.
I don't even know why. I feel like there's something
wrong with me because I should be able too, but I can't.
And when it comes to do things in front of a class or in front of
a group of people, it's even worse. I seriously cannot do
it.
I don't know why and it's really starting to bother me.
I'm constantly feeling judged even though I know those people
don't care. And my mom is always telling me to 'just get
over it and talk' or 'stop acting like a child and
talk' but I really can't do it. I've tried but I
always freeze or freak out.
It's not normal. I really want to know what's wrong with
me.