This post is for a Wittian named
"Darknes"
I ddn'nt see an ask box so,
I hope you see this because I desperately want you to know that
1. You do have a life, it may not be the one you want,
but you do have one, you exist, you're real, you're living, you're alive.
2. I'm sorry that you're on 8 months of being un-noticed by people,
I hope this counts in being noticed, it may not be much,
but I noticed you.
3. I'm sorry that you cut yourself on a daily basis. I truly am, because
I know exactly what it's like to do it on a daily basis,
I did it on a daily basis for at least three years.
But then you know what happened? I stopped.
And you can stop too.
It's not one of the easiest things to do, but it definitely is possible
because people do it every single day,
and you could be one of those people if you want it bad enough and
I'm sure you do because I'm also sure you don't want to be stuck in
this depressing rut for the rest of your life. Right?
You can do it; I believe in you.
4. I'm sorry that you're depressed,
sadly a lot of people struggle with depression and it sucks,
and I'm sorry that you struggle with it,
I'm sorry for anyone who struggles with it because nothing is worth getting
depressed over,
no boy and no girl and no action.
But it's not something you can just magically poof away,
it's something you have to work very hard on.
You can do it.
5. Suicide is never the right answer even if it feels like it at the time,
because your life is wroth something and I honestly promise you that,
and whenever you feel worthless, come to me and I will tell you
how much worth you have, which is a lot because
everyone is worth a lot more than they give themselves credit for.
You probably don't agree with this,
but a lot of people need you, care about you, love you, and would miss
you if you killed yourself.
Don't do it. Please?
6. Pathetic? We all feel pathetic at times,
but you're not pathetic. You are the beez knees, actually!
7. Please talk to me if you need anyone to talk to,
you can always email me at:
destineeissocoollike@yahoo.com
It gets so much better than it is right now.
I ddn'nt see an ask box so,
I hope you see this because I desperately want you to know that
1. You do have a life, it may not be the one you want,
but you do have one, you exist, you're real, you're living, you're alive.
2. I'm sorry that you're on 8 months of being un-noticed by people,
I hope this counts in being noticed, it may not be much,
but I noticed you.
3. I'm sorry that you cut yourself on a daily basis. I truly am, because
I know exactly what it's like to do it on a daily basis,
I did it on a daily basis for at least three years.
But then you know what happened? I stopped.
And you can stop too.
It's not one of the easiest things to do, but it definitely is possible
because people do it every single day,
and you could be one of those people if you want it bad enough and
I'm sure you do because I'm also sure you don't want to be stuck in
this depressing rut for the rest of your life. Right?
You can do it; I believe in you.
4. I'm sorry that you're depressed,
sadly a lot of people struggle with depression and it sucks,
and I'm sorry that you struggle with it,
I'm sorry for anyone who struggles with it because nothing is worth getting
depressed over,
no boy and no girl and no action.
But it's not something you can just magically poof away,
it's something you have to work very hard on.
You can do it.
5. Suicide is never the right answer even if it feels like it at the time,
because your life is wroth something and I honestly promise you that,
and whenever you feel worthless, come to me and I will tell you
how much worth you have, which is a lot because
everyone is worth a lot more than they give themselves credit for.
You probably don't agree with this,
but a lot of people need you, care about you, love you, and would miss
you if you killed yourself.
Don't do it. Please?
6. Pathetic? We all feel pathetic at times,
but you're not pathetic. You are the beez knees, actually!
7. Please talk to me if you need anyone to talk to,
you can always email me at:
destineeissocoollike@yahoo.com
It gets so much better than it is right now.
For
three years I have struggled with severe depression.
For three years I have struggled with self harm.
For three years I have struggled with suicidal thoughts,
and suicidal actions.
In November of 2011,
I was put into a mental hospital,
it was my first hospitalization ever,
and it didn't stop there.
After that I was sent to the emergency room nine times,
and out of those nine times after the first hospitalization,
I was placed in two other mental hospitals.
All for suicide attempts, suicidal thoughts, and self harm.
I was one year and five months clean,
but then somethiong happened that severely effected me,
so with that, I broke.
After that, I had tried to remain clean but it only lasted short
periods of time.
I am now about two and a half months clean of self harm,
and I haven't attempted suicide in months.
Suicide crosses my mind from time to time though,
as does self harm.
I realized a long time ago though that you just have to keep on truckin',
regardless of all of the bad that happens to you,
you just have to keep on going and never give up.
Giving up isn't an option,
nor will it ever be.
With all of this I want to say that you can get through this.
Self harm won't always be your best friend,
you'll find new friends and new coping skills,
and you will get through this,
and you'll be happy that you never gave up.
So please,
don't ever give up.
Ever.
For three years I have struggled with self harm.
For three years I have struggled with suicidal thoughts,
and suicidal actions.
In November of 2011,
I was put into a mental hospital,
it was my first hospitalization ever,
and it didn't stop there.
After that I was sent to the emergency room nine times,
and out of those nine times after the first hospitalization,
I was placed in two other mental hospitals.
All for suicide attempts, suicidal thoughts, and self harm.
I was one year and five months clean,
but then somethiong happened that severely effected me,
so with that, I broke.
After that, I had tried to remain clean but it only lasted short
periods of time.
I am now about two and a half months clean of self harm,
and I haven't attempted suicide in months.
Suicide crosses my mind from time to time though,
as does self harm.
I realized a long time ago though that you just have to keep on truckin',
regardless of all of the bad that happens to you,
you just have to keep on going and never give up.
Giving up isn't an option,
nor will it ever be.
With all of this I want to say that you can get through this.
Self harm won't always be your best friend,
you'll find new friends and new coping skills,
and you will get through this,
and you'll be happy that you never gave up.
So please,
don't ever give up.
Ever.
If you're
hurting, feeling overwhelmed, or anything....tell someone, someone
who will listen, and who will care, who won't judge you, but
will comfort you, and do their best to help you. Those feelings
that area eating at you? They shouldn't be kept inside, they
shouldn't be hidden. Because, no matter how strong you are, or
think you are...hiding your hurt, or worry, or whatever it may
be..can damage you, it can change you into someone who you
don't want to be. So please, tell someone, they'll surely
lend an ear, a shoulder to cry on, whatever you
need.
why can't "ily" stand for i like you like a brother
like cmon is it all about love no...
I
hug you when I see your arms.
You don't deserve this kind of harm.
I Love You, you beautiful person
and I probably care too much.
I can see your eyes are growing weary
and from the world, you're losing touch.
All I want is to hug you
and tell you its okay.
It will be in the end,
even if its not today. <3
You don't deserve this kind of harm.
I Love You, you beautiful person
and I probably care too much.
I can see your eyes are growing weary
and from the world, you're losing touch.
All I want is to hug you
and tell you its okay.
It will be in the end,
even if its not today. <3
Saying
I don't
care
about
you
is a
slap
to the
face.
I just want you to know
that i'll never care
how far you push me away.
Because when I told you
that I would stay...
I Meant It.
Youre a little lost
and a little damaged,
But youre not hopeless.
I know you.
I love who you are,
and thats why i'll stay.
So you can learn to love
yourself too. <3
that i'll never care
how far you push me away.
Because when I told you
that I would stay...
I Meant It.
Youre a little lost
and a little damaged,
But youre not hopeless.
I know you.
I love who you are,
and thats why i'll stay.
So you can learn to love
yourself too. <3
I see your fake smile. Because
believe me, darling, I know that smile. I know what it feels like
to reply, "I'm good." when someone asks you how you
are. But not because you are good, because you're just so
used to saying it, that you don't even think about it
anymore. You don't even realize the question that's being
asked. Your response is just so rehearsed, that is comes out with
no effort. Just like that beautiful smile, darling. It breaks
your heart to lie to those you love. It's so hard to tell
them everything is perfectly fine.
But it's even harder to tell them the truth. You don't want to be in such a vulnerable state. You can't handle that kind of pity. But you gotta believe me when I tell you, darling, you're not alone. I'm here for you.
I understand that reflection you see every night. The one you don't even recognize anymore. That same smile that you've been wearing for years to fool everyone into thinking you're fine, has finally fooled you. Just for that split second, when you look in the mirror and see that stranger smiling back at you, you believe it. You actually think you just might be happy. But then, your heart starts to hurt, your body starts to ache, your tears start to flood, and all the memories come back. You're not okay. You're not happy. You're dying from the inside out, and nobody even bothers to notice.
You feel like you're alone and everyone has given up on you. But you have to believe me, you're not alone, darling. I'm here. I'm right here holding your hand. I'm rubbing your back as your cry on my shoulder. Even if you can't see me, or hear me, I'm here. And I'm not going anywhere. Because I know what it feels like to want to just throw it all away and say, "fu-- it." I know what it feels like to think, "I'm not worth it. Nobody cares about me, and everyone leaves. So it's my turn. I'm going to be the one to leave this time, and leave THEM hurting and alone." But darling, you are so incredibly worth it. Your life matters to me. Even if we've never talked, or if I don't even know your name.
I'm here for you. And I care about you. I don't want you to go anywhere. Maybe I'm your best friend, I care about you, and I don't want you to go anywhere. I know it's tough darling, but hang in there. Do it for me. Do it for everyone who's ever told you they loved you. I'm so sorry you have to wear this fake smile every day, but stay strong, darling. Stay strong and hold on to the mystery of tomorrow.
But it's even harder to tell them the truth. You don't want to be in such a vulnerable state. You can't handle that kind of pity. But you gotta believe me when I tell you, darling, you're not alone. I'm here for you.
I understand that reflection you see every night. The one you don't even recognize anymore. That same smile that you've been wearing for years to fool everyone into thinking you're fine, has finally fooled you. Just for that split second, when you look in the mirror and see that stranger smiling back at you, you believe it. You actually think you just might be happy. But then, your heart starts to hurt, your body starts to ache, your tears start to flood, and all the memories come back. You're not okay. You're not happy. You're dying from the inside out, and nobody even bothers to notice.
You feel like you're alone and everyone has given up on you. But you have to believe me, you're not alone, darling. I'm here. I'm right here holding your hand. I'm rubbing your back as your cry on my shoulder. Even if you can't see me, or hear me, I'm here. And I'm not going anywhere. Because I know what it feels like to want to just throw it all away and say, "fu-- it." I know what it feels like to think, "I'm not worth it. Nobody cares about me, and everyone leaves. So it's my turn. I'm going to be the one to leave this time, and leave THEM hurting and alone." But darling, you are so incredibly worth it. Your life matters to me. Even if we've never talked, or if I don't even know your name.
I'm here for you. And I care about you. I don't want you to go anywhere. Maybe I'm your best friend, I care about you, and I don't want you to go anywhere. I know it's tough darling, but hang in there. Do it for me. Do it for everyone who's ever told you they loved you. I'm so sorry you have to wear this fake smile every day, but stay strong, darling. Stay strong and hold on to the mystery of tomorrow.
