Best Icare Quotes Ever

One summer I was at my beach house in Canada.
My mother and grandmother and I went out for coffee the morning we were leaving.
As we walking into Tim Hortons, I saw a very pretty girl.
She took our order with a small smile on her face.
As she gave us the coffee, that's when I noticed the scars.
Sometimes I wish I had told my mom, "I'll be right there mom.
I need to go talk to her and tell her it will be alright."
But I couldn't because we were heading home and in rush.
It's been two years since I've been into the Tim Hortons.
I still wonder how that pretty girl with the pretty smile is doing today.
I wonder if she's happy now, found her reason to wake up in the morning.
Or if she isn't here. the pressure being too much.
And if that's the case, I wonder if my words could have helped save her.

I'm a girl
And I'm nowhere near perfect
I freak out a lot
Sometimes I can be demanding
Sometimes I stare at my phone waiting to get a text from a guy who hardly knows who I am
I cry over silly things
Sometimes I overreact over little things
Sometimes I feel worthless when people ignore me
I fake a smile just so everyone will leave me alone
I'm really complicated
I'm just an imperfect and silly girl
But at least I care

Sometimes




all you need








Is someone that cares

Put down the blade.
Put the gun away.
Spit out the pills.
Throw out the rope.
Hide the scale,
And go eat dinner.
I know how hard life is,
How cruel people can be.
I know you may hate everything in you,
But I love you no matter who you are.
I don't care who you are,
Where you've been,
Or what you've done.
If you are close to ending your life,
Or if you just want to die,
I care.
If you are even just sad,
About something you deem unimportant,
I care.
You are a child still,
You shouldn't be dreaming of death.
Let me help you live.

Why is it so hard to find someone
 who cares about you?
When its easy enough to find someone
who looks down on you.

 

For three years I have struggled with severe depression.

For three years I have struggled with self harm.

For three years I have struggled with suicidal thoughts,

and suicidal actions.

In November of 2011,

I was put into a mental hospital,

it was my first hospitalization ever,

and it didn't stop there.

After that I was sent to the emergency room nine times,

and out of those nine times after the first hospitalization,

I was placed in two other mental hospitals.

All for suicide attempts, suicidal thoughts, and self harm.

I was one year and five months clean,

but then somethiong happened that severely effected me,

so with that, I broke.

After that, I had tried to remain clean but it only lasted short

periods of time.

I am now about two and a half months clean of self harm,

and I haven't attempted suicide in months.

Suicide crosses my mind from time to time though,

as does self harm.

I realized a long time ago though that you just have to keep on truckin',

regardless of all of the bad that happens to you,

you just have to keep on going and never give up.

Giving up isn't an option,

nor will it ever be.

With all of this I want to say that you can get through this. 

Self harm won't always be your best friend,

you'll find new friends and new coping skills,

and you will get through this,

and you'll be happy that you never gave up.

So please,

don't ever give up.

Ever.

I have this crazy feeling that there's something you're not telling me..