Dear Nobody,
I look in the mirror today, tonight at this very moment. I don't see myself anymore. No like i haven't seen myself before, its just...cloudier. I don't feel right. I don't feel like I have a self. A personality that i could call my own.. I'm faded, lying awake at night wondering how long before the next horrible crash will commence. I shouldn't think that way. I can't think like that. However, although it is apparaent that i have a good and perfect life. I am truly grateful for, of course. but i"m scared of losing it. I'm scared of not being able to talk to people. I want to help people. But i don't think I'm needed. Sometimes I feel like I'm just not there. That theres a barrier between me and a lot of my friends. I think it's myself to be honest. There's something wrong with me that doesn't let me get close to people. Theres just something wrong with me. I want to spend time with my old friend but it seems like I'm never around to be with him. I want to talk to all my other friends but I feel like i bother the hell out of them by texting first...I just..don't know what to do.. Everyone thinks I'm okay right now.. everyone just thinks I'm okay..
I'm okay...
~ S.K.B.
I look in the mirror today, tonight at this very moment. I don't see myself anymore. No like i haven't seen myself before, its just...cloudier. I don't feel right. I don't feel like I have a self. A personality that i could call my own.. I'm faded, lying awake at night wondering how long before the next horrible crash will commence. I shouldn't think that way. I can't think like that. However, although it is apparaent that i have a good and perfect life. I am truly grateful for, of course. but i"m scared of losing it. I'm scared of not being able to talk to people. I want to help people. But i don't think I'm needed. Sometimes I feel like I'm just not there. That theres a barrier between me and a lot of my friends. I think it's myself to be honest. There's something wrong with me that doesn't let me get close to people. Theres just something wrong with me. I want to spend time with my old friend but it seems like I'm never around to be with him. I want to talk to all my other friends but I feel like i bother the hell out of them by texting first...I just..don't know what to do.. Everyone thinks I'm okay right now.. everyone just thinks I'm okay..
I'm okay...
~ S.K.B.
The flowers you gave me are
wilted, but still i refuse to throw them away.
Sorry about last night, I was in a
miserable mood....
But if anyone has Xbox Live, you should add me :3 and don't mind my name, a friend suggested it so , my gamertag is :
Go On Mugzy
But if anyone has Xbox Live, you should add me :3 and don't mind my name, a friend suggested it so , my gamertag is :
Go On Mugzy
And when I say "I'm okay." It
means, I really have no fúcking idea how I feel, stop
asking.
I'm not okay
you ware me out
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.. and
tonight
was
the
first
night
in a
long
time
everyone
believed
me when
I said
I was
okay...
I'm
getting
better
that
this
game.
I think I'll be okay... :3
I'm dying
slowly,
and I don't mind,
and you don't notice.
and I don't mind,
and you don't notice.
It doesn't matter if I have
my eyes open or
closed,
I always see the same darkness.
I always see the same darkness.
