&+ your
the reason I'm afraid to go to sleep
at night The reason I can't listen to
music. The reason I can't even
breathe. Your the
reason That
i'll never be the same.
Shestiedtogetherwithasmile. Laughter shakes
through her body. Holdingbacktears. She'll be the better
person. Andbehappyforhim. Though seeing them hug or kiss makes it
impossible. Shecan'tbreathe. But shes
strong.
Shes the one that broke. Even though no
one thought she would.
Now shes all alone. Trying to remember how life should be.
She smiles at the memories as the air blows on her cheeks.
She will hear the ocean, though there is no water there.
She will feel the sun, though it set long before she arrived.
Nothing but rain. Nothing but pain. Just hurting.
She looks at her wrists. So many slashes, so
much hurt.
She looks down and sees her heaven and takes a step.
Now shes falling. She can feel the sun. She doesn't cry.
Because she lost the fight. and now she'll take a
risk. AndJump.
Dear Family,
I'm sorry. I know i will never be the same. Dear God,
I'm sorry. I know that praying was wasted. Dear Teachers,
I'm sorry. My grades aren't the best.
Dear Future,
I'm sorry. I didn't plan for this either.
Dear Past,
I'm sorry. I won't be able to think about you. Dear Self,
I'm sorry. It will never change my feelings.
Dear World,
I'm sorry. You will never see who i could have been.
Shes that girl at home alone. Shes
crying and hurting. Because of
you. Shes bleeding
insideand out. Every slip of the blade is
another drop of
blood. You left her broken. You left her
to die. But much worse than death shes still
here. Every beat of
her heart means another beat to live through. She doesnt feel
release from pain when she
cuts but she will to have a different kind of pain. Shes still
breathing and her heart beats as always.
Her heart beats in painful thrumming. Because of
you Death-would-be-a-relief.