shelbyAcolin
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Hey!
My Name is Shelby.
I'm 18.
I have two amazing boys in my life.
I have my Boyfriend, My Lover, My Heart, My Soul, and My Bestfriend
And I have my Son; My Light, My Pride, My Joy
I'm a dork. I love to read EVERYTHING.
Right now my life is everything that I've ever wanted it to be.
But I had to work to get here.
My friends at school don't really know about my past.
They wouldn't believe me if I told them.
I was raped. Over and over and Over.
I was abused.
I've begged for my life on several occasions.
I've been left to die.
By the one person who I should have been able to trust more than anyone.
My boyfriend and best friend at the time; Shane.
My boyfriend I have now saved me.
And I owe him everything.
I came on witty so I could be myself.
I don't want your pitty.
I don't want you to feel sorry for me.
I'm happy when I never thought I could be.
Why should you pitty that?
I want to make a difference and am here to help ANYONE who needs it.
I'll even give out personal info if you don;t want to talk on the interent.
I believe everyone can be happy.
And I believe everyone Deserves it.
I'm only one person. But I want to make a difference. I can't change the world, I know that. But it doesn't mean I can't try to help one person every single day. That's my goal; that's my purpose.
One day I hope you have a son that makes you smile like Alec makes me.
It's the best feeling in the world and you truly deserve it beautiful♥
Thank you, that's very sweet. He is a very handsome little man, just like his daddy! :)
Your ultrasound is very sweet too.. I could never get one of Alec like that.. It is perfect♥
He is everything to me♥
I'm thinking about leaving witty, and, idk, I guess I just need inspiration w
to stay, or hate to leave.
Can I ask who you named your baby after?
That does tend to complicate things..
Has he ever talked about moving back down, or you moving up there?
Scared if you break up you'll lose him?
So are you guys like, friends, best friends, casual friends..?
And have you ever talked to him about it?
Who is this he?
There has to be something besides the pain..
Like flowers, photography, sports, anything..?
I've honestly never heard that before.
Why is the sadness addicting? Is it just because you've known it for so long and it feels safe, or...?
other things can tell stories to though, you know?
Like a genuine smile?
Or even a frown in the beginning?
Expressing yourself, making people listen to you, letting it out maybe for the first time?
Scars only tell a story in your mind. But you, you can tell the one that's going to matter. The full recount of what really happened. Only you can.
The pills may numb the pain, or make you feel good, but it's only an illusion to what's really happening; your feelings being shoved into a box made of knives, and every time you take a pill to push it back where it belongs, it lets go of a knife and the knife hits your state of being, the state that isn't high. The state that feels the real pain..
I know. It sounds crazy. I probably am crazy. But, it's the only way i can describe it.
I'm being serious though..
Any time, night or day, even if I'm a last resort, I'm here..
Could you just not find other ways to cope, or is it just more effective to you?
i'm sorry for all of the questions, i'm just trying to understand.
Everyone's different, and I don't want to treat everyone that I talk to the same.. Believe me, that happened to me and it just really, idk, peed me off that I was trying to talk to someone about everything and they sounded like a robot with their questions and stuff, like they just got done with the same mechanical method with the last person; like a therapist.
We're all bright and extremely stunning on the inside, and we should be treated like it.
http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/5441897
It's not spam, promise.
Please take the time, that's all I'm asking.
Someones always here.
Stay Strong, Stay Beautiful
If you don't mind my asking, what made you start cutting and popping in the first place?
If you don't want to say anything, it's fine. We all have our reasons.
And I'm sure you've heard this before, but cutting isn't the only you can do to make you feel alive again.. :/
Battle wounds are one thing, but, you're too beautiful to mar your skin just to make sure of something that can be reasoned through, and I truly believe you're strong enough to do it. I know you can.
I noticed on your profile it says "I wish you could see the real me.." It may sound cheesy, but I really want to..