Quotes added on Sunday, June 23 2019

You're not special for standing by the one person who is getting pointed at. If you didn't for one moment think that maybe the majority had come to a decision that they were the harmful one, then no you are not special. Staying by their side, waiting for them to hurt you so you can see it for yourself doesn't make you special. You should think for a second...maybe there's a reason they're not getting along with the others. You won't be any better if you ignore the red flags and choose them over everyone else. That's not being forgiving, that's how you lose people. That's how you lost me.

It's much deeper than everyone getting the same amount of dessert as a kid. It's the support, the afterschool activities, the showing up, the unconditional love. It's the reassurance that no matter what you do, your parents will always be there for you. It's not enough to say you loved us all the same, because i saw it. When i wasn't allowed to do things that they could. When i was unfairly compared. When their achievements were celebrated and mine expected. It's the different standards, where for some reason mine were always higher but no reward. When push came to shove in a heated argument, your instincts told you to protect her. To take her side. I will never fully understand. I think it is too cruel to make me understand. It's less awkward now at least. Our relationship almost died when i saw it all for what it was. I still care but have little respect for you. Love doesn't matter if there's no respect. Caring is unintentional, i'll care for as long as it isn't calculated and deliberate. If i ever let it get to that point i'll be disappointed in myself for resembling you.