Dear
Nick,
When I first saw you, I thought you were
cute. I didn't think much of it because how could someone
like ever like someone like me? But then as we were walking you
rushed forwards to hold every door for me - like a perfect
gentleman. The one time I tried to hold it for you, your brother
ended up holding it for both of us. It was when you laughed at my
expression and your whole face lit up that I realized I liked
you.
I
didn't see you after that for a while, but when I did your
eyes always lit up and you waved. I thought, maybe you could like
me. Then I saw you at the talent show that night and you asked
why I wasn't playing my guitar and singing. You walked me
back to the room I was staying in and we talked and laughed. That
night I went to sleep dreading waking up the next day, knowing
that I was running out of time to be with you and around you.
The next few days you would always come
up to me on the beach while I was reading my book. I would laugh
out loud at what I was reading, or cry, or smile or do something
embarassing and you would always act like you were the one that
made me have each reaction so that I wouldn't look stupid. I
fell for you, hard. And still I went to sleep every night, afraid
that when it was all over I'd never have any connection to
you, any proof that you were real.
The night of the showcase, I was sitting
with my family and you were alone. I was going to go talk to you,
but before I could a few of your friends came over. As I was
leaving that night and I walked past you, our eyes met but you
didn't smile or wave. Maybe you were embarassed to be around
me with your friends there? That night I decided I wasn't
going to talk to you the next day.
Then the next day, and my last day, came
around and I was walking on the beach and I fell on my butt and
you laughed and helped me up and I forgot all about how I was
supposed to be mad at you. We talked and laughed. That night I
was playing tennis with my brother and he made me realize how
much I was going to miss you when I left. I was determined to get your phone number. As I
was walking to where you told me you would be I saw you sitting
with another girl. She was prettier than me, and she had an
accent. I understand, I wouldn't choose me either. As I was
walking by you, you didn't even look up and acknoledge me. It
hurt - a lot. Then I was crying on the beach, and you came and
asked me what was wrong and I lied and told you it was because a
character in my book died. Then I left you there and your brother
found me.
He knew I was lying, and he said
"I'm sorry about Nick. If it counts for anything, I wish
it had been you." I tried to smile through my tears. He
handed me a letter but I didn't open it. The next day, even
though I'd fallen asleep crying because of you, I still
looked for you. I'd probably never see you again and I wanted
to get your picture in my mind before I left. I didn't see
you. At the airport I did you. You smiled and waved and I just
turned and walked away. I never saw you again after that. As I
was on the plane home I remembered the letter and pulled it out.
It explained that I'd changed you. How you'd seen me
crying on the beach that one day and I'd caught your
attention, until you realized I was crying over a book. You'd
never been so moved by a book, so you took note of which book it
was. Everyday, every new book I had, you took note of what I was
reading. You liked me a little more each day, but you'd never
thought I'd ever like you. The last day, that girl you were
talking to was flirting with you, but all you could think about
was how I'd run away crying.
Dear Nick, I'm so sorry that I blew
it. I really like you, and I'm sorry I couldn't tell you
while I still had the chance. So I'm writing you this letter
in return so that you know that I read your letter, the one you
never intended to give me. I love you Nick, but every day your
face fades from my mind a little more. Maybe it was a good thing
that your brother gave me that letter. I don't know.
Love,
-Hayley.♥