2011
this year, I've felt completely
alone with no where to turn.
even though there were only
365 days
in this year, I can
easily say that many of those days ended with tears on
my
pillow as I drifted off to sleep. I realized that some people
aren't who I thought they were at first. I struggled
to let
go of people I thought I needed to
survive, & I finally
released my grip when I realized they were only
bringing
me down. I met some truly amazing
people who have
stayed by my side starting this year & hopefully
until the
end of forever. I found tiny bits of happiness when I
was
going through a remarkable amount
of pain. I found
myself wishing to be
anywhere
else. I
met a guy I
could picture myself marrying until
he shattered my
heart into a million pieces. I
realized some people are
truly there for me even though
it took a long time for
me to realize it. I felt as
if I could fly. I gave up in
situations where I should have kept
trying. I lost all
hope, every single bit of it. I became
close with people
in a short amount of time & drifted from them in an
even
shorter one. I had my w h o l e life figured
out, then it
spirraled out of control. I found people who
make my
life worth living. I met my
witty best
friends who live
400 miles away, & that day, I felt true happiness
for the
first time since March 2010. I lost people I
could never
imagine my life without. I idiotically cried over a guy in 8
different states. I let people down, hurt people purposely
& unintentionally. I wished I had an escape button
from
life. I experienced every
emotion there
is.
I g r e w
u p .