Siya8

I'm broken 

I have this best guy friend and I don't feel like we are best friends anymore. I miss him so much and don't even think he cares.  I don't know what happened but yesterday i told him i was going to stop talking to him because i was the cause of why him and this girl weren't dating. He got so mad and cussed him off. I didn't understand what was wrong cause usually he didn't handle things like this but in the end he told me why he was so mad. I felt so hurt as he also changed his mood message on Skype and I knew it was about me. I went offline for a while and cried. I'm a very emotional person so I cry a lot and I try to hide it. People always say be strong don't cry ... I don't choose if I want to cry or not tears just automatically start falling from my eyes if I feel hurt. I am also thinking I also think I'm  taking this to serious but the only way for me to get over it is if I write this on witty. Later the day ... I asked him if he still wanted to do the sleepover with me and my friend. His first answer was I don't think I will be able to come. I was disappointed but it was actual a reasonable answer because I don't think his parents would allow him to go to a girls house for a sleepover. Las time when I asked him if he wanted to come he  was so excited and enthusiastic about it but this time it seemed like he wasn't. I may be paranoid but still ... I think he is trying to avoid me. If he wants a break from me at least tell me instead of ignoring me. It hurts be ignored by the one you love. It seems like you don't even have time to talk to me. I would really appreciate a short 10 min call. I always think  about calling you but I never know if your in the mood to talk to me. Last night I was looking through our old conversations in 6th grade and we talked like 24/7 and will always had a subject to talk about. I really wish those days would come back but life doesn't always go the way you want it to. We used to Skype until like 1:00 in the morning and now guess what I do during those hours I Skype another guy which I don't want to because every time I Skype that guy all that is on my mind is what is you :3 ... If your reading this can we have a fun talk and share secrets? I bet you won't because you said you starting not to give a forget and not fearing the consequence. I guess you don't care anymore so if you do so I will stop giving a forget too.... Always remember that I love you though. Please don't take this as if I'm accusing your or anything cause I am not that is just going to hurt me more. Witty is like my diary so this is just how I feel and I have to express my feelings in order to feel better. 

Witty Sisters comment if you would like to give me advice or anything. Please don't tell me I'm paranoid or over thinking about it too much cause I already know I am. 

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So I miss those days:
I miss the late conversations we had on skype. 
I miss hearing you voice. 
I miss you telling me you love me. 
I miss hearing your laugh. 
 I especially miss the time we were on a call and I said I didn' t want to hang up and you said you didn' t want to hang up and it went on. 
I miss you so much and you don' t understand. 

I love you even though you break my heart </3

 

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