SoInLoveWithYou

She never told a single soul
Incase she decided to do it some more
The cuts she had she chose to hide
She made up reasons of why she cried
She hid the knife she made them with
She’s been doing this since she was a kid
For reasons no one will ever know
Because her real feelings never show
She sits at home and cries all night
Then goes to school like everything’s all right
Her friends all think she is a normal girl
But they have never taken a step into her world
They have never seen the way she bleeds
She’s never gotten the attention she needs
She’s scared though that one day she might go too far
She’ll have to tell what her secrets are
Or she might not get a chance
To go to her very first dance
Kiss the boy she always loved
Because she will take a trip to the heavens above

i love the way my leg goes numb
i love the way it feels as it slides across my bare skin
i love the pain that shoots through my body
i love the way it slowly goes away
i love how for a few minutes all my problems
~*~disappear~*~

cutting is the stupidest thing i could have ever done and now that i have started i cannot stop so before you go and do it you should really thing about it and how it will affect your life forever .

behind my smile are my tears
my deepest thoughts
my greatest fears
losing someone that i love
reaching the lovely heavens above
getting in a fight when i know i shouldnt
trying to do something when i knew i couldnt
all these things i hide inside
never letting a single tear
escape from my eye

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nobody seems to listen
nobody seems to care
i always remember hearing
life isnt fair
but i didnt think that would mean
my best friend would start to hate me
its like you locked my heart
then threw away the key
my feelings are all gone
not expecting them to return
just wish you didnt do what you've done

I wish i was a millionaire
so i could buy your heart
i wish i could go back in time
change everything from the start
i wish you didnt love her
so you could love me back
but its only a wish
and wished dont come true
but if one of my wishes did
i wish i could have you

I'm lying here
crying inside
never letting a tear
escape from me eye
holding in every emotion
i have ever felt
i wish someone would pour water on me
and i'd begin to melt
i wish i could leave
this awful place
the road is ending
i've won the race
first to reach the heavens above
the only one who hasnt experienced tru love
first to realize she left it all
first to see her family fall
theres a bump in there road
it suddenly appeared
i wonder what it is
then i look in the mirror
me im to blame
i seriously though things would stay the same
i didnt think they really cared
now i do
but i cant go back there
my road has come to a sudden hault
just wish my family knew
it wasnt there fault

If tomorrow my life should end
and i was asked
who was my true best friend
i would have to say it was you

if tomorrow i should die
and i was asked
who made me cry
i would have to say it was you

No i'm not a cutter
no i'm not a freak
i'm just a girl
afriad to speak
i just like the way it feels
its never really deep
jsut deep enought to leave a mark
probably not even a scar
i just need a way to get my feeling out
its not like i go really far

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