Micheal.
i miss you, so much.
i don't understan why, you had to be taken away too.
in such a short period of time, after kevin.
or at all.
i miss you're sweet words.
how you could make anything and everything better.
how you were so down to earth.
how we had the same problems, and helped each other.
i'm so sorry for everything that i've done to you.
you didnt deserve it.
and i didn't deserve you.
you were amazing micheal, no one could compare.
i feel empty without you and kevin here.the only two people i
could trust.
the only two people i could talk to.
last night, i was going to kill myself.
and make sure it worked this time.
but courtney stopped me.
i'm so ready to just leave here...and be with you two
again.
i've got this emptyness in me that just won't go
away.
i'll see you soon.. i love you.
<3
Kevin.
i miss you...so much.
i keep asking why, why that had to happen to you.
why shane did what he did.
i keep playing the scene over and over in my head.
even though i wasn't there.
i picture it in my mind, all the time.
you're reaction.
if you were last, or first.
there were so many things i hadn't told you.
so many things you needed to know.
so many things you'll never know now.
you were my first true love.
and you were taken away from me..
just.like.that..
i love you, kevin.