On december 8 2011 i asked a beautiful intelligent, headstrong,
confident girl ,named mykayla marie cutone, to be my girlfriend.
At first to me she was just a pretty face with an attractive body
that i thought i could get something from. Soon enough did i
realize i had fallen for her. Somewhere between the long
interesting conversations on the phone and tinychatting almost
24/7 i had began to really like her. After hanging out and
talking constantly being in our relationship for only 1month i
knew i had fallen in love.
As time went on we did many things together we had celebrated and
had are first real date we went to adventuredome on our one month
as a "birthday present" , she paid for me, and still to this day
she doesnt even know i felt horrible that she paid for me lol.
Then came my 15th birthday a long night fullof fun and lots of
flirting with her and showing her off. We went bowling a few
times and to the movies a couple of times but it was mostly
hanging out at her house or mine.
If i could exactly how many times i have been to her house and
she has been to mine i would but its so hard to keep count. Many
things we have seen eachother do and achieve. She watched as many
volleyball games and football games of mine as she could and
would come to as manyof her softball games as iwaz allowed. Out
of all the timeswe hung out ther are a few that reallystand in my
mind. The first would definately have to be her eighth grade
award ceremony. Watching her get all of her awards made me smile
thinking to myself "wow she is so amazing and so smart ireally
look up to her."
Another time that really stands out in my head the most is when
we went to the millitary ball together. I was so nervous i dont
know if she could tell how nervous i was. All i could think about
was how beautiful she looked in her dress. She, to me, was the
most beautiful girl there. Other than her extrvagance making me
nervous i was even more nervous to dance. It was my first slow
dance with a girlfriend. It was amazing even though the adults
were telling us that we couldnt xance so close lol. But the
favorite part of the evening was when the dance ended and we
waited out side for my dad go pick us up.t was kind of cold out
and i had to hold her to keep her warm it was an amazkng
night.
Many other memories i could share but reallydont have a lot of
time to write. The purpose of this is to say as fast and amazing
things start off they ,an end just as fast. Around our 11months
we began to clashand fight over stupid petty things. Bringing
other people into our relationship. Stress and unhappiness after
awhile shrouded both of us it was getting to the point where we
fought a lot. We wereboth unsure and one day iended it because
she said she didnt if she loved me or wanted to be with me
anymore. Not thinking brfore i acted i regreted it after about a
week we got back together trying tofix things and started off
looking like we might but in the end she had lost feeling and
shortly ended our relationshipfor good. Decmber 4 2012 has to be
the worst day of my life so far.
Yes we broke up but was i just gonna give up no i wasnt. I tried
for weeks and little by little tried to talk to her again. Even
though i put all my effort there i failrd she has moved on and
didnt want to deal with the pain and hurt she had gone through
fir the past few months. Yes i will metion i did something to
hurt her and apologozef many times for but in the end sorry
diesnt stop the hurt. Tiday is february 10 2013. I am still
completely in love with what is now mykayla marie cutone the most
beautiful, most amazing young woman i know. We went through so
much and in the end couldnt hold together. Im nota quitter for
not fighting right now im letting her enjoy her happiness again
which she deserves. As for me i sit in my room and think about
how beautiful she is how much i wish i could be holding her hand
and holding her again and kissing her. Showing her off to the
world as my girlfriend. I miss our little nicknames. I miss
caling her babygirl and princess and babe and baby. And i miss
her calling me boobear and babe and sweety. Most of all i miss
telling her i love her. Letting her know i was there for anything
and anytime she needed me. What ever you do dont give up on love.
Love conquers all as long as you believe. Theres always a chance
in life justlike theres always faith in love.