I can't
listen to any song without thinking about him and tears coming to
my eyes. the worst part is it's not my most recent breakup
that i'm
still upset about. i'm still upset over a guy breaking up with me in
July. And I got broken up with about a week ago again. I never
stopped loving the first guy. I have to see him every day and
know that he'll never be mine again. It hurts like hell and I
literally want to stab myself through the chest because that pain
would be easier to deal with than the pain of not having him in
my world.