I'm honestly just so depressed that i don't know what

I'm honestly just so depressed that
i don't know what to do with myself anymore.
i can't even cry at this point.
i don't have anything to cry about other than
the sheer fact that i'm unhappy.
it's always been like this, and nothing has ever changed that, and i am terrified that nothing ever will.
so what am i to do but sit here and feel sorry for myself; typing my feelings away to a total stranger who probably couldn't care less?
to make matters worse, i don't care if things get better.