I keep telling myself that I don't need them. I keep telling

I keep telling myself that I don't need them.
I keep telling myself that I don't care about them.
I keep telling myself that it's all their fault.
I keep telling myself that I'm better off without them.
But who am I fooling?!
I guess I'm trying to 'protect' myself with pushing people away.
I guess they don't even care.
If they'd care & be there for me when I need them most,
they'd be here with me & be trying to cheer me up.
But they're not here.
So obviously they don't care at all.
& obviously HE doesn't care either.
I've been doing so much just that I can sit next to him in class.
All he does is calling the spot next to this girl.
Right now I just need someone to hold me tight.
Someone who tells me that everything is gonna be just fine.
But where is this person...?