i think she was afraid
OF LOVE SOMETIMES. I THINK IT
SCARED HER. SHE WAS THE TYPE
TO LIKE THINGS
THAT WERE CONCRETE,
like the ocean. something you
could
point to &
know what it was. &
i think
that's why she struggled with love.
she
couldn't touch it. she couldn't hold onto it
&
- - - - - -
make sure it never changed.