XtaralovesyouX

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Chapter 16

I rolled up my sleeves that night, taking in a deep breath.
My eyes finally took enough courage to stare down, as my nimble fingers traced my outdated and nearly faded scars.
There were exactly three of them, all lined up against my wrist.
They were long, and had a pinch of color in them.
I let out my breath, so tempted to rejoin my old habits once again.
My hands trembled, as I stopped myself from digging the sharp razor into my skin.
I couldn't do it, again.
I promised not only myself, but Cameron.
I vowed to never cut myself again, it would only make my condition worse.
The clean, unused razor dropped to the tiled floor, making a clinging sound.
I drenched my face with cold water, as it soaked my bangs slightly.
I needed to snap out of it, I had to stop thinking so suicidal thoughts.
If I killed myself, I'm sure Cameron wouldn't approve of it.
If he was still alive, he would scold at me for risking something so rare on the line, my life.
I took a warm shower, washing away all my thoughts, as salty tears streamed down my face.
They blended in with the water shooting out of the shower.
After I got out of the shower, my wet hair was clinging onto my face, as I tossed on some comfortable clothing.
The doorbell suddenly rang, as I sprinted downstairs to get it, knowing Ruth wasn't going to be home tonight.
With one swift movement, I twisted the doorknob, letting the door swing open.
Standing with snow covering his hood, and rosy red cheeks, Hunter gave me an emotionless stare.
My breath got caught in my throat.
Hunter was standing in my doorway at night.
"Can I come in?" Hunter finally asked.
I felt myself nod, forgetting whatever Maddi had told me.
I closed the door behind, as Hunter came inside, taking his hood off.
His shiny black hair was revealed, as he avoided my gaze.
I frowned, feeling my heart drop.
This was the first time he wasn't being friendly towards me.
It made me feel kind of empty.
"Do you want something to drink?" I whispered.
He ignored my question, finally looking at me with intense eyes.
I gulped, staring away from him blazing blue eyes.
"I'll get you some coffee." I muttered, brushing by him.
Before I got to take more than two steps, a strong hand made its way on my wrists.
Hunter gripped my arm, as he jerked me forwards.
I landed forcefully, yet gently, right on his chest.
My free hand was pressed agaisnt his built chest, as a blush crept up my neck.
Why was Hunter acting so strange?
"I, uh, I-I-"
I couldn't speak in a correct manner.
Everything that I tried to say came out as a bunch of stutters.
Why was I getting so nervous?
"Look at me." he finally said.
I held in my breath, as I ignored his command.
I could feel his body tensing, as he took one hand, placing it on my chin.
He traced his thumb on my jawline, tilting my head.
My eyes met his, as his hand fell to his side.
"You didn't mean it, did you?" he whispered.
His warm breath trickeled down my neck, creating small goosebumps.
"M-mean what?" I choked out.
His arms suddenly wrapped around my waist, pulling my in.
He placed his chin on top of my head, as my breathing became slow, while my heart began to race.
"What you said to me, never wanting to be my friend." he mumbled.

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