The Final Cry
Jessica's
POV
Chapter
5.
I got this high feeling. The pain felt so good, I
didn't want it to stop. I didn't want to keep thinking
about Jayson.
I've heard that cutting is painful. Cutting.
I'd promised myself I'd never do it. But now it's the
best option.
I quickly run down to the kitchen, realizing mom left, leaving a
note on the fridge.
I left for Grandma's
house, she's sick.
I'll be back in 3 days.
- Mom
No I love you, be safe, don't do
anything stupid. No nothing. I rip the note from the fridge
and tear it to shreds, tears welling up in my eyes again.
"She doens't care about me!" I scream as I rummage
through the kitchen, looking for something, anything, to take
away this pain.
"No one cares about me!" I scream as I take a sharp
knife.
"No one would care if I did this!" I whisper as I slide
the blade across my wrist.
I draw in a deep breath as the sharp pain courses through my
arm.
This pain is like nothing else. It hurts, but it feels good.
For once, my mind is completely free of Jayson.
All I think about is the warm crimson blood dripping from my
wrist onto the bathroom floor.
I smile, and slide the blade in a new place, leaving another
cut.
I leave cut after cut, until my arm feels numb.
I realize that I've slid down and am now sitting on the
floor, little pools of blood all around me.
I get up, wash the knife, and put it back. Then I clean up the
blood from the floor, and throw the towel in the garbage.
I run upstairs to my room, and put on my PINK hoodie, then
realize that I haven't eaten since yesterday at dinner.
I walk downstairs, and make myself a sandwich.
Once I'm done eating it, I walk back up to my room, passing a
mirror.
I stop, and look at my reflection.
No, that can't be me. I won't let it.
I groan in disgust, and run to the bathroom, sticking my finger
down my throat, throwing up my lunch.
That's better. I smile, and walk back into my room, sticking
my ear plugs in my ears, covering myself in a blanket, and dozing
off to sleep.
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