The day I leave... I hope you all know... I tried... I
tried so hard to be who you all wanted me to be... I tried to
smile as often as I could even when I was holding in tears and
smiling hurt... I tried because although I hate who I am..
Although I despise everything about me... I loved you all with
everything. And I'm so sorry that my trying wasn't good enough...
I'm sorry you all have to go through this... I'm sorry I couldn't
be my best for any of you... I'm sorry because although I tried
my hardest although I gave living everything I had... I just
couldn't and I wasn't ever good enough for any of you. You all
deserved a friend, daughter, sister that tried harder and was
enough and was better. I loved you all so much. That never
changed. I just couldn't stay because you asked me to. I couldn't
make sense of living a life where every time I breathed it hurt.
I'm sorry....