jerseygirl part twelve "I- I don't know what to say."

  jerseygirl part twelve 
  "I- I don't know what to say." I whispered , I started shaking. A lot. He pulled me into him , I was in such shock I couldn't help but tremble. "I- I cant." I whispered gently cupping his face in my hands. "Cause of Mike?" Hearing Mikes name hurt. Like knifes hitting my heart. Everything came flooding back. How much I missed Mike and how we were supposed to get married. I was in love with that kid. "Yes , we wouldn't have been , could have been together.." Luke sighed gently and let go of me. It was dark outside and the wind blew. I could her the waves crashing. Luke couldn't look at me. I knew that I hurt him a lot and I hated that. "You know that blonde that I told to shut up at the bon fire?" I thought back and I grimaced. "Yeah well no chiz I remember her. Shes the one who gave me the beer." Luke tensed , "Yeah well that's my girlfriend." I was in complete shock. All I could say was something completely and utterly stupid. "Way.to.be." Luke rolled his eyes. "Yeah well its not like you weren't flirting with me either. I told her to shut up cause were in a fight. But we didn't break up. She still means a lot to me. She though I was cheating on her , but I wasn't that's why she asked me if I wanted to get at you. I still care about her. Shes like a sister to me." For some reason I got really jealous even though I shouldn't have been. "Uhm you'd date your own sister?" I asked , Luke looked like he wanted to tell me off but he stayed some what calm. "You really don't remember me do you?" Shock rolled back into my body again, what was he talking about. "What?" Luke bit his lip and gave me a sarcastic smile. "I bet you remember Nick." My mind raced. "Nick who?" Luke stared at me dead on. "Nick Spiconardi , ya know your best friend?" Luke growled , looking really unhappy. Everything clicked and I was so hoping Luke wouldn't agree with about I was about to say. "Ero's bestfriend ? As a kid , When we lived back in Wyoming ?" Luke looked like it bothered him that I remembered him so well. "Yeah and you had the biggest crush on him." I blushed and looked down. "Well yeah , and he had a little brother little l. Which stood for Luke." Right as the words came out of my mouth I looked at him and my jaw dropped. "Wait you cant be.." I said my eyes wide open. "Yeah I am. Nice to know your mom doesn't recognize her bestfriends son when she sees him." I couldn't belive it. "Oh my god , you remember me? " I shrieked forgetting everything that happened before and hugging him. Luke was my bestfriend as a child and his mom was my moms bestfriend , but they moved when I was seven , I didn't know were. "Yeah well of course I remember you. I always will remember your eyes. Ill always remember you." He murmured holding me just for a second. "Wheres Nick!? I gotta see him!" I yelled excitedly , I still had butterflies about Nick. When I was little Nick was my first crush. He meant everything too me. "Of course you would want to see him. He was always your favorite." Luke snapped. "I'm sorry Ljay!" I laughed as I was about to hug him he grabbed my wrist and made sure I didn't hug him. "Yeah well now your sorry. Don't treat me like i'm 5 Athena. First i'm older than you and second I know I was little back then but I grew now don't think of my any different and third fine ill take you to see your lover. But your not gunna like him he changed okay. and fifth were having a bon fire tomorrow and he'll be there , show up if you want .. I guess. And sixth tell your family who I am so they dont end up hating me forever." He let my hands go , and I blushed. "Yeah well okay. Sorry ill see you tomorrow .." I whispered really embarrassed. "Yeah at six. Bye A." And he walked down my driveway into his Nissan. Damn I really screwed up I thought. I hurt my bestfriend as a kid and even worse I still thought he was really hot. Great now what am I gunna think when I see Nick. I walked in the house and shut the door quietly. Id tell me mom later about Luke. I walked upstairs and heard the guys finishing up cleaning down stairs in the kitchen. I walked into my room real tired. I walked in and I saw tears streaming down Thanatos face but she was smiling. "Was that really Ljay?" She asked , my window open. I wanted to be mad but it was a really good moment. Thanatos grew up hanging out with Nick and Ljay. Luke got his nickname cause when he was little he was really small , I mean REALLY small , and we got the jay from when he fell out of a tree and broke his arm the first thing he said when we visited him in the hospital was "I really wish I was a blue Jay." that's how it all went down. That memory always made me smile. "Yep! Cant you belive it ?" I squeaked happily forgetting everything bad that's happened today to run up and hug her. "Can we all go to the bonfire tomorrow night?!" Thanatos chirped , pulling back from my hug to smile at me. "Yeah but come at eight. I wanna hang out alone with them for a while!" Thanatos nodded and smiled and went downstairs to go tell everyone while I got a towel from my bathroom and took a shower. I realized that I haven't taken a shower in two days. After the shower I threw on a pair on Victoria secret sweat pants and a tank top. I layed in bed and put on Jersey Shore. I picked up my Mac and decided to talk to the only person who could understand me. My bestfriend Macy.
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