My secret? I never eat, I use to cut myself, I still think shes

My secret?
 

I never eat, I use to cut myself, I still think shes going to wake up and be fine. I cry ever night for things to get better. My moms losing her hair, to a disease and she cant do anything about it. I lost my best friend and she hates me now. My life is horrible, I sometimes even think about ending it. But at school, everyone thinks I'm the happiest person alive, I guess I'm an amazing actress.