I think I'm somewhat pretty... I would just enjoy being skinnier.

I think I'm somewhat pretty...
I would just enjoy being skinnier.
It's so frustrating to try on 174895 different outfits in the morning,
look in the mirror, and see how fat I look in all of them.
So as usual, I end up wearing a jeans & a hoodie to hide my muffin top.
I don't even want to look at myself at all anymore. Because when I do, all I see is fat.
Everyday, I just walk around school, seeing all the skinny girls thinking "I wish I was that skinny"
or "I wish I could wear clothes like that"
or "maybe if I was skinnier he would actually talk to me."
  I hate sitting down in class because you can see all mah stomach rolls bunch up. Sexy, right? ...no.
And it's not even like I sit on the couch and eat junk all day...
I sit on the couch and eat vegetables and fruit all day...
One of my friends literally sits on the couch all day and lives off of chicken nuggets, french fries, and oreos, and she's a twig -_-
I'm a vegetarian, so I actually have quite a healthy diet. Just a slow metabolism. Darn genetics >.<
I've tried going a few days without eating. 
But my mom, being the Portugese mother that she is, forces food down my throat.
And the excuse "my stomach is bothering me" won't work for more than 1 or 2 days in a row.
I want to lose weight.
But I need motivation. Like someone to scream at me on the treadmill.
Urgh.


I just needed to vent a wee bit. Thank you ♥