fallenangel*

Status: Living life day by day
Joined: February 26, 2013
Last Seen: 1 month
user id: 351434
Location: Finally found<3
Gender: F
I'm just a girl trying to make her way in the world. I'm pretty weird, but I'm proud of that. I battle with depression every day, and my poems and quotes express my inner most feelings. I don't think highly of myself, but I'm content with who I am. Im me and that's all I can be. Flaws and all.

Quotes by fallenangel*

The demon within me urges me on
Thoughts of suicide
wanting to die
The urge to pick up the razor
To make the pain more bearable
Why is there so much pain?
The need to cut is like an itch I cannot scratch
All I want is that blade slicing through my skin
Taking away the pain you caused
Making it hurt less
Why do you always threaten to leave me?
Don't you know how much that kills me?
Do you even care?
If there is no care in that 
What's the point of being here?
I am just a failure
A horrible, messed up 
failure
All I want is to slice my skin open
Feel the pain that doesn't hurt
Blind the pain that is there
Watch as the red pools over
Spills down the beautiful white skin
Why am I so messed up?
 
Dreamland 

I want to go to the place
Where I can escape
my failures and mistakes

I want to go to the place
Where I can leave all
the hate behind and
find joy and happiness instead

I want to go to the place 
Where I can be free
And be whatever I want

I want to go to my
Dreamland
I miss the old witty, when people actually talked and commented on stuff. When we all were there for one another.
It's so easy to write about the pain
It's so easy to let the negativity in
It's so easy to rely on the bad
and forget the positivity that is there
You're alive
You're breathing
And against all the odds you thought was
You're happy
It's time to focus on the positive
Time to focus on the good in life
It's time for a change
This is new for us both
and it will be a journey
Hard and difficult
we might hate each other at times
But we will get thru this
We have both waited too long to be happy
to be loved
We can do this
every thing WILL be ok
I promise baby
Would not feeling be such a bad thing?
No more pain or agony
No more misery or sadness
The only thing there will be is
Nothing
An empty shell moving around
Uncaring and unloving
Just being alive and hoping every day will be your last
What's the point of staying alive if you don't feel alive?
I'm done putting on a show
I'm done pretending I'm okay
I am not okay
I'm low, dark, lost, broken, and
Unfixable
Some damages will never come undone
Some damages change who you are forever
And there's no turning back
How did this happen?
What have I done?
I was so happy with him
He was everything I have ever wanted
Then I ruined it
All because of a stupid little thing
How could I have let the fear control me?
Always putting myself down and believing I'm not good enough
Letting the toxic thoughts come to the surface
I know I shouldn't
I know that I should have dismissed them
Why must I sabotage myself?
Why can't I let myself be happy?
Why can't I believe that I am good enough to be loved?
I ruined my happiness
I hurt him so bad
I wish I could take the pain from you
I wish I could take back what I did
All I want is you
My reason to smile and laugh
Why do we realize too late that were in love?
Why does it take losing them to make you realize how much you need him?
I want the touch of your hands on me, I want your lips on mine
I just want your attention, your gaze on me, your arms around me
I want you
I need you
I am so lost without you
I promise I'll be yours, forever
I promise I won't leave, not until you don't want me
Without you, I am a robot
Moving through time, mechanically, getting up only because I must
Going through the motions, putting on a fake smile
Numb, empty, and emotionless
Everything in me is screaming to give up
But I can't let go of the hope that there might be a chance
If you could find it in your heart to forgive me, I promise I'll never hurt you again
I promise I'll let go of the fear and insecurities
I promise I'll stop letting it control me
Please, my love, take me back
I might be stupid, insecure and a bit crazy
But you'll never find anyone else who's in love with you as much as me
She likes to dance on the thin line between life and death.