*wishing i was what you wanted*
he hugged me from behind then put him arms around shoulders
i touched his hands and everything felt perfect
he saod i was the first one to notice his haircit af first glance
when the one slow song came around he didnt dance with his date and i didnt dance with mine
we looked around at all our friends in bliss
he saw me and i saw him and we both went to the hallway
both of us are misfits in our group of friends
both of us always the third wheel
but darling, we have have eachother
i touched his hands and everything felt perfect
he saod i was the first one to notice his haircit af first glance
when the one slow song came around he didnt dance with his date and i didnt dance with mine
we looked around at all our friends in bliss
he saw me and i saw him and we both went to the hallway
both of us are misfits in our group of friends
both of us always the third wheel
but darling, we have have eachother
i just
wanted
you
to let
me in
REMEMBER HOW YOU ALL
WANTED TO LAUGH FOR 24 HOURS
STRAIGHT TO GET A SIX PACK?
YESTERDAY A SHOW ON TV
SHOWED A MAN WHO LAUGHED FOR 36 HOURS STRAIGHT. HE ENDED UP
DYING BECAUSE HIS DIAPHRAGM OVERWORKED, HIS HEART STOPPED,
AND IT KILLED IM IN THE END.
NOW DOES IT SEEM
LIKE A GOOD IDEA? :P
WANTED TO LAUGH FOR 24 HOURS
STRAIGHT TO GET A SIX PACK?
YESTERDAY A SHOW ON TV
SHOWED A MAN WHO LAUGHED FOR 36 HOURS STRAIGHT. HE ENDED UP
DYING BECAUSE HIS DIAPHRAGM OVERWORKED, HIS HEART STOPPED,
AND IT KILLED IM IN THE END.
NOW DOES IT SEEM
LIKE A GOOD IDEA? :P
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OK so yesterday was fine, we had a pep rally in the afternoon so classes were shorter. X and I talked as usual.
Then at my locker as I was about to leave one of my friends was hanging around my locker and asked me to go to hc with him. I said yes and we both have to go with our siblings who are friends and we are going to THE SAMEPIC PARTY.
After school x came and sat with me first then his other friends. At the football game I talked to my friend ( we are known as the 2 clares ). And then x and my hc date have the same name and they started chasing us. After that we had balloon wars and x and I were hitting each other with balloons and me ended up bending my toenail back like halfway down my toe and it started gushing blood, the thing is it didn't even hurt that badly because I've built up my pain tolerance. Then doublesidedice and her bro came and we hung out. I introduced her bro to x cuz we are all lotr nerds and they instantly clicked. Then x said that he was going to go sit down and told me to join him so I did and brought Elyssa and her bro with me. Elyssa and I got up and took a walk and when we came back x and her bro were gone. After texting her bro and him telling me they were in narnia I found them sitting under the balloon archway for the hc game. We sat down and talked with x,my friend,Elyssa, and her bro. Elyssa and my friend d started a discretion with flying spit so I moved to the end to I wasn't in between them. X, ( who was next to elyssas bro, who was next to her, who was next to my friend, told me to come over a d sit with him. There wasn't really room so he actually made room for me, it was so sweet. Then my leg started to shake really badly, meaning that ,y blood sugar was really lowElyssa and I were a step higher and x rested his head on my legs, OMG he has the SOFTEST HAIR EVER! And then my right leg started to shake really badly, meaning my blood sugar was really low. After elyssas bro and x fried mulitplul ways to try to stop it and failing Elyssa and I went on a walk again and returned about ten minutes later. Elyssa and I were a step higher and x rested his head on my legs, OMG he has the SOFTEST HAIR EVER! And then my right leg started to shake really badly, again. X commented that it was like,e a massage chair but then I said that I can't help the shaking and that it wasn't healthy. He offered me his coke( no not the drug) but I refused and Elyssa and I had a longish argument about how I needed something to eat to raise my blood sugar, and to take the coke. Being me I refused, but I could see the cinserend look in x's face. After that the tree of the. Tried to stop the shaking by sitting on me, trying to told my leg still physically, and finnaly tried to squish my legs together buy having me sandwiched between him and elyssas bro. This worked for a while but the shaking got move violent and elyssas bro took my leg and put it on his lap which actually worked, but was uncomfortable so I put my foot on the ground after a couple more minutes only to keep shaking. After that Elyssa tried sitting/ laying in me when that didn't work x joined her and it made me want to hug him but I didn't. After they finnaly gave up an 8th grade from my old school came up to say hi to Elyssa and I cuz he is our frien and asked me if I was dating x and I was lik "no!" But x was only like "no" and I think we both wanted to answer " yes" instead. He played 'Pokemon on his phone for about 30minutes Elyssa and her bro went to go get food so it was just x and I. I sat there with my knees up to my chest staring at the stars that are almost not seen cuz of all thepolution here. The game ended and I didn't see x after that because he never comes to the bells, a tradition where everyone goes to the bell in the courtyard and the bells are ring while the band plays. Well I guess I'll see him tonight, wish me luck with homecoming guys!
OK so yesterday was fine, we had a pep rally in the afternoon so classes were shorter. X and I talked as usual.
Then at my locker as I was about to leave one of my friends was hanging around my locker and asked me to go to hc with him. I said yes and we both have to go with our siblings who are friends and we are going to THE SAMEPIC PARTY.
After school x came and sat with me first then his other friends. At the football game I talked to my friend ( we are known as the 2 clares ). And then x and my hc date have the same name and they started chasing us. After that we had balloon wars and x and I were hitting each other with balloons and me ended up bending my toenail back like halfway down my toe and it started gushing blood, the thing is it didn't even hurt that badly because I've built up my pain tolerance. Then doublesidedice and her bro came and we hung out. I introduced her bro to x cuz we are all lotr nerds and they instantly clicked. Then x said that he was going to go sit down and told me to join him so I did and brought Elyssa and her bro with me. Elyssa and I got up and took a walk and when we came back x and her bro were gone. After texting her bro and him telling me they were in narnia I found them sitting under the balloon archway for the hc game. We sat down and talked with x,my friend,Elyssa, and her bro. Elyssa and my friend d started a discretion with flying spit so I moved to the end to I wasn't in between them. X, ( who was next to elyssas bro, who was next to her, who was next to my friend, told me to come over a d sit with him. There wasn't really room so he actually made room for me, it was so sweet. Then my leg started to shake really badly, meaning that ,y blood sugar was really lowElyssa and I were a step higher and x rested his head on my legs, OMG he has the SOFTEST HAIR EVER! And then my right leg started to shake really badly, meaning my blood sugar was really low. After elyssas bro and x fried mulitplul ways to try to stop it and failing Elyssa and I went on a walk again and returned about ten minutes later. Elyssa and I were a step higher and x rested his head on my legs, OMG he has the SOFTEST HAIR EVER! And then my right leg started to shake really badly, again. X commented that it was like,e a massage chair but then I said that I can't help the shaking and that it wasn't healthy. He offered me his coke( no not the drug) but I refused and Elyssa and I had a longish argument about how I needed something to eat to raise my blood sugar, and to take the coke. Being me I refused, but I could see the cinserend look in x's face. After that the tree of the. Tried to stop the shaking by sitting on me, trying to told my leg still physically, and finnaly tried to squish my legs together buy having me sandwiched between him and elyssas bro. This worked for a while but the shaking got move violent and elyssas bro took my leg and put it on his lap which actually worked, but was uncomfortable so I put my foot on the ground after a couple more minutes only to keep shaking. After that Elyssa tried sitting/ laying in me when that didn't work x joined her and it made me want to hug him but I didn't. After they finnaly gave up an 8th grade from my old school came up to say hi to Elyssa and I cuz he is our frien and asked me if I was dating x and I was lik "no!" But x was only like "no" and I think we both wanted to answer " yes" instead. He played 'Pokemon on his phone for about 30minutes Elyssa and her bro went to go get food so it was just x and I. I sat there with my knees up to my chest staring at the stars that are almost not seen cuz of all thepolution here. The game ended and I didn't see x after that because he never comes to the bells, a tradition where everyone goes to the bell in the courtyard and the bells are ring while the band plays. Well I guess I'll see him tonight, wish me luck with homecoming guys!
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today x and i did homework for 2 hours togeather with our frineds and like 2 weeks ago it was really fun
he thought i was mad at him last week and i wasnt so for the first tme in three weeks i told the truh and jastsaid i was really depressed and that i dont really have a middle ground between happy and depressed, i feel like its commming to a point were im going to have to spill because we are basicly becomeing best friends and well its inevitable at one point
he said that he was going to homcoming even though he wasnt going to have a date, he was going to ask this gil in our english class but people said so many thins to her about it he just didnt do it
today was a firly good day
i cant wait untill tomorrow because douvlesidedice is coming to the football game h me again
more creepy deshavo ( is that how you spell it) stuff happened today
today x and i did homework for 2 hours togeather with our frineds and like 2 weeks ago it was really fun
he thought i was mad at him last week and i wasnt so for the first tme in three weeks i told the truh and jastsaid i was really depressed and that i dont really have a middle ground between happy and depressed, i feel like its commming to a point were im going to have to spill because we are basicly becomeing best friends and well its inevitable at one point
he said that he was going to homcoming even though he wasnt going to have a date, he was going to ask this gil in our english class but people said so many thins to her about it he just didnt do it
today was a firly good day
i cant wait untill tomorrow because douvlesidedice is coming to the football game h me again
more creepy deshavo ( is that how you spell it) stuff happened today
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sorry I didn't post yesterday but here it goes
FRIDAY
At my school we have mass once a month( yes I'm catholic) and they are like two hours long because the school is so big. So we get together in homerooms( groups of 25 kids by last name) and x is in my homeroom. Walking to mass he was next to / behind me the whole time and my goal was to sit with him that day because well....ya. Anyway so we got to the gym( where mass is said) and I didn't get a sing pamphlet thingy so he taps my head with his and playfully scolds me. As we walked up the bleachers I had to start a new row and my friends said I could squeeze in but I don't want to. By the time I actually understood what they were saying the rest of the class filled in and I had to sit alone, kinda but nine the less I was so close to reaching my goal.
In religion I sit two desks in front of x and he pushed the desks forward. I pushed back and held myslef and desk stable. He continued to push and the desk between us came off the ground and the front of the desk was rammed into my back. It was kinda loud but didn't actually hurt. Our class went silent and our teacher walked into the room at that moment and it was really funny cuz he was confused. Although half the desk thing was my fault x was blamed for it.
Walking beck to our lockers after last period x usually talks with other friends but as we were walking he told me to wait up for him. I was really suorised and thought, maybe,just maybe he's asking me to hc. Of course he find tbut that was expected. Instead he talked about the desk thing in religion. I told him I was a you get sibling( he knows that already and he is one to) and that I get away with a lot, and that no one expects the "innocent one" to do anything wrong. He told me I looked innocent cus he always " scolds" me when I cus and I asked him why and that was his answer but none the less that was Friday.
So there was an away game on Friday but I didn't go because I went hc dress shopping with one of my friends who goes to a different school.
Today
Today there were so many events going on, GT game, music midtown, fall festivals, and more. I went to the GT game and it rained had for the game and was clear before and after. Even with our pnchos we were soaked. Most all of my friends from school went to music midtown, including x, and I winder how they survived the rain. I'm getting yelled at to go to bed so night :-)
sorry I didn't post yesterday but here it goes
FRIDAY
At my school we have mass once a month( yes I'm catholic) and they are like two hours long because the school is so big. So we get together in homerooms( groups of 25 kids by last name) and x is in my homeroom. Walking to mass he was next to / behind me the whole time and my goal was to sit with him that day because well....ya. Anyway so we got to the gym( where mass is said) and I didn't get a sing pamphlet thingy so he taps my head with his and playfully scolds me. As we walked up the bleachers I had to start a new row and my friends said I could squeeze in but I don't want to. By the time I actually understood what they were saying the rest of the class filled in and I had to sit alone, kinda but nine the less I was so close to reaching my goal.
In religion I sit two desks in front of x and he pushed the desks forward. I pushed back and held myslef and desk stable. He continued to push and the desk between us came off the ground and the front of the desk was rammed into my back. It was kinda loud but didn't actually hurt. Our class went silent and our teacher walked into the room at that moment and it was really funny cuz he was confused. Although half the desk thing was my fault x was blamed for it.
Walking beck to our lockers after last period x usually talks with other friends but as we were walking he told me to wait up for him. I was really suorised and thought, maybe,just maybe he's asking me to hc. Of course he find tbut that was expected. Instead he talked about the desk thing in religion. I told him I was a you get sibling( he knows that already and he is one to) and that I get away with a lot, and that no one expects the "innocent one" to do anything wrong. He told me I looked innocent cus he always " scolds" me when I cus and I asked him why and that was his answer but none the less that was Friday.
So there was an away game on Friday but I didn't go because I went hc dress shopping with one of my friends who goes to a different school.
Today
Today there were so many events going on, GT game, music midtown, fall festivals, and more. I went to the GT game and it rained had for the game and was clear before and after. Even with our pnchos we were soaked. Most all of my friends from school went to music midtown, including x, and I winder how they survived the rain. I'm getting yelled at to go to bed so night :-)
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so last night was the hc dance. I will admit that my old schools dances were better but hey. So I went to a picture party with my sister and all her friends and my date. That was the only time all night that we even talked was at the party.
At the dance I. Came in and then hung out with some friends then went to look for more of my friends. Coming back into the gym x hugged me from behind, wrapping his arms around my ribcage. I looked up at him and then he put is arms around my shoulders crossing his writers at my callar bone. I reached up and touched his fingers as I turned to face him. I said "nice haircut" and he said I was the first person who had noticed it at first glance. I laughed and we headed our seperate ways.
The night went in and I was dragged to the water fountain with one of my friends. I was cleaning against the wall and x came along side me and playfully bumped me. I had to head back to the room were all my stiff was being held to take of my heals but we just kinda left x there.
later in the night the fox song was played so i went to the hallway again to justtake a walk. i noticed x following me at a distancebu i didnt turn around i kept walking. i pretnded i was looking for one of my friends and almost turned into the other gym( we have 2 gyms) then i saw x turn around probably thinking that i was going into the gym. i turned around and this time it was i who was following him at a distance.
about 30 minutes before the dance ended everyone was basicly packing up. i went o go put on my shoes and passed x in the hallway.he made a face at me so i made one back and that was basicly our goodbye for the night. tomorrow is a day off so i might not post beacuse nothing would really happen
so last night was the hc dance. I will admit that my old schools dances were better but hey. So I went to a picture party with my sister and all her friends and my date. That was the only time all night that we even talked was at the party.
At the dance I. Came in and then hung out with some friends then went to look for more of my friends. Coming back into the gym x hugged me from behind, wrapping his arms around my ribcage. I looked up at him and then he put is arms around my shoulders crossing his writers at my callar bone. I reached up and touched his fingers as I turned to face him. I said "nice haircut" and he said I was the first person who had noticed it at first glance. I laughed and we headed our seperate ways.
The night went in and I was dragged to the water fountain with one of my friends. I was cleaning against the wall and x came along side me and playfully bumped me. I had to head back to the room were all my stiff was being held to take of my heals but we just kinda left x there.
later in the night the fox song was played so i went to the hallway again to justtake a walk. i noticed x following me at a distancebu i didnt turn around i kept walking. i pretnded i was looking for one of my friends and almost turned into the other gym( we have 2 gyms) then i saw x turn around probably thinking that i was going into the gym. i turned around and this time it was i who was following him at a distance.
about 30 minutes before the dance ended everyone was basicly packing up. i went o go put on my shoes and passed x in the hallway.he made a face at me so i made one back and that was basicly our goodbye for the night. tomorrow is a day off so i might not post beacuse nothing would really happen
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So today was ok. X and Talked before first period about how I was" jelly" that he watched the hobbit yeasterdya( nerd probs) after lunch he sat next to my friend at the picnic table but that's ok I guess. Its so hard not to be jealous but I think I'm doing ok cuz its natural. We started talking about hair and my friend was like OMG feel xs hair its so soft. I was like ya I know. X gave me a look like half funny half creeper out and asked me when I had felt it. I responded with saying, remember the homecingin football game. He blushed a little and it said oh ya but it was really cute. Anyway in religion we talked a little before the bell rang. But he came into the room and put his hand half on my face half on my hair, idk. After religion I always wait for one of my friends and walk with her to the next class. She told me that x got really scared about me eating today and that he told her that she was like a sky kinda to make sure that I eat. She said that was before religion so maybe that's why he talked to me but again idk. In bio I walked In to find x sitting on the top of my desk, which is kinda usual now.we talked but he didn't ask me about eating, but I he kept looking over at me like he wanted to say something. As I said today was ok, nothing really big happened but I feel really guilty now because I don't want him to worry about me.
So today was ok. X and Talked before first period about how I was" jelly" that he watched the hobbit yeasterdya( nerd probs) after lunch he sat next to my friend at the picnic table but that's ok I guess. Its so hard not to be jealous but I think I'm doing ok cuz its natural. We started talking about hair and my friend was like OMG feel xs hair its so soft. I was like ya I know. X gave me a look like half funny half creeper out and asked me when I had felt it. I responded with saying, remember the homecingin football game. He blushed a little and it said oh ya but it was really cute. Anyway in religion we talked a little before the bell rang. But he came into the room and put his hand half on my face half on my hair, idk. After religion I always wait for one of my friends and walk with her to the next class. She told me that x got really scared about me eating today and that he told her that she was like a sky kinda to make sure that I eat. She said that was before religion so maybe that's why he talked to me but again idk. In bio I walked In to find x sitting on the top of my desk, which is kinda usual now.we talked but he didn't ask me about eating, but I he kept looking over at me like he wanted to say something. As I said today was ok, nothing really big happened but I feel really guilty now because I don't want him to worry about me.
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I just sent 15 minutes typing oabout today and it got deleted so I have to rewrite it and hope that it's enjoyable
was the first day that I was very happy I'm not exactly sure why but I wasoh wait now I remember
today darkEyeangel was asked to homecing in biology by our friend. It was really cute.
Every girl x has asked turned him down for their friends so he gave up in asking. I still don't have a date( imagine that) Hana but my friend thinks he is going to ask me and I think she is right because I keep catching him looking at me like today I had to meet my sister by the art room and she didn't show up so I texted her then called her and it turns I out she was in the art room with clay in her hands. I knew x was in art club but when I talked to my sister he was staring at me the whole time. I walked down the hallway when that was over to get water and as I walked back down the hallway he came out and asked me to go to homecoming......jk Hana no I just walked past the room and he stared at me as I passed. We talk on a regular basis now and everything is fine. I'm falling for him like I did for have( do you remember him, well he's gone) he's so nice and sarcastic and we have also had a lot of those creepy moments were u r thinking something and then someone else says what you were thinking, well it happened yeasterdya with the song rawr by Katy Perry then it happened twice today, once in English when are teacher asked what we wouldn't mind letting go of and I was like screw school we don't need that and Then he said it. Its crazy its like he is a guy version of me its really cool but creepy and gosh I'm falling so hard...like harder than have if y'all remember that
