Pain Quotes

~..~Please no more. No more tugging the strings on my heart. I just need to know...Do you really want me? Am I that worth it? Are you just saying these things?? I need to know..please*i'm falling apart and you're becoming the reason. no one else. *its hurting*I just want you, you say i'm #1, but why do I feel like im..what ive always felt? The last choice...the first piece of a bag of bread...the unwanted....~

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7:21 PM
OK, honestly, f*ck good grades. i f*cking give up. clearly that 96 on my history test means nothing if my mom is going to complain about the others. "All you do is party and play on the phone talking shizz" FIRST OFF, IM ALWAYS IN MY ROOM and SECOND OFF i wouldnt be talking shizz if i wasnt given reason to.

7:23 PM
"what is she doing" "why does she have low grades" "girls your age are studying to be a NURSE" HWUFOEISADJFVNDHAI FIRST OFF, SHE KNOWS I DONT WANT TO DO THAT. I HAVE TOLD HER EVERYTHING I HAVE WANTED TO DO, AND SHE'S GOING TO JUST F*CKING DO THAT???!!????!!!

7:23 PM
how about some words of f*cking encouragement.

7:24 PM
I know what i'm doing now, i know what i'm going to do -school related, not life LMAO still stuck on that part- just let me do it and dont say anything unless it's gonna help me and not make me feel shizzyy

Emily 7:25 PM
well bb i'm here and even if i'm not your real mama if you need encouragement i'm here

7:25 PM
being a freaking straight A is harder than she thinks. FIRST OFF, we got dumb f*cking students that waste our damn time in class. SECOND OFF, i suck a** at tests. passing that test was the happiest moment in my life, seriously. Especially history. i always got D's and F's since i took history classes (ever).

7:26 PM
I know, but it's not the same. i'm stuck with this woman 24/7 and forever.

Emily 7:26 PM
BOY RIGHT THAT P*SS*S ME OFF AND ME TOO WITH TESTS AND HISTORY

7:27 PM
I'm doing my homework in the living room, my brother has comany and im crying.

Emily 7:27 PM
i'm sorry

7:28 PM
:') Like you, i gotta suck it up, right?

7:28 PM
How're you feeling btw?

Emily 7:29 PM
it's not always best to suck it up tbh but i'm alright, how are you

7:35 PM
I love her too and for the past couple of months i have tried with her and told her i want us to be close like the girls i hear at my school say "i tell my mom everything" i told her that i never feel welcome and all of that stuff and nothing changes.

7:35 PM
i love her and my dad too, but in the end, someone gets hurt either way right? There's no win-win situation. those have always been just words. someone either shows it or is on the inside unhappy with the way things worked out

-~-~-Mom, i'm sorry, I can't win with you. I've tried, but you won't give in. Not even for the most important reason. One day...and soon...You're going to lose me.. i'm sorry, i tried but you didn't do anything. i screamed so loud, you became deaf, i wasn't heard.-~-~-

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2:47 PM
Okayyyy so emily and pebs both see me as their daughter, so i have called them "mom" and " dad" before and thanks to society, daddy is viewed as the " FASTER " or " HARDER " Daddy shizz

2:47 PM
That was the first time it slipped out as " daddy" though

Dusty💚🔑💯 2:48 PM
Im.... done....

Dusty💚🔑💯 2:48 PM
💀

2:49 PM
I AM STILL A GOOD KID

Dusty💚🔑💯 2:49 PM
You're just proving my point mam...

2:50 PM
When the frick did i become a "mam" i literally just called myself a kid.

2:50 PM
And

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It

2:50 PM
Slipped

2:50 PM
Okay

~Instead of blaming others, why don't we take a second to look at what we caused for once~

~it'll be another official year. in a week for me to say i have lived this long after everything I've been through. I'm Proud, but for the love of God and the sake of everyone around me, please dont let me suffer on the day that means most to me by having to spend 2 hours with you around. i see you enough, why the frick does it have to be on the most important day that i'm stuck with you? Hasn't the universe already gotten much proof that im trying to get away from what i hated most? From the people that hurt me most? . . . From the objects that hurt me most? At least those 3 have taught me a lesson. You just gave me a demo of what hell would be like.~

~You were my sky. ~I looked forward to every morning and night because of you. ~For no reason...~You didnt keep me calm...~You didn't love me like you said you did..~You didnt do anything.~You loved me but you didn't know how to show it...~I guess your way of loving me was by hurting me.~Those things you said and did...~I used to be so happy because im at peace when i look up at the literal sky~Now when i look up, all i want to do is cry. ~No lie, sometimes i want to die because i let myself give in~You were my sky...~But now i kind of want you to burn in hell, but i know I'll see you there when im gone.

~Its OK to cry, It's OK to want to scream, It's OK to get excited over the little things, the things other people may not be excited about. Regardless, we are still going to be labeled. So I say, live the best life you could have. Not everyone may approve but it's all up to you💕~